Tuesday, December 31, 2019

Hello, friends, and goodbye 2019!!! 

    In the past I've written recap posts, where I share some stats and goals. I remembered while at work today that I'd better get to this year's post tonight. I hope it finds you well!
    Let's start with the stats. My top viewed post was I Went Outside to Gather, and my top month for views was May, with 635 views, which, if you break it down is 158 views a week or 22 views a day. 

In my last new year's post, I only had three goals. Keep working, go to college, and find new places to take music.

Did I keep working? Yup. And if you'd told me that I would be working at McDonald's I would have just snorted. It was and is a mental struggle to work there, and it is hard to force myself to go there and be nice to customers and to stand in puddles of grease all day. However, there is the bakery, which makes up with fun and happiness the cringe of McDonald's.  Hopefully I'll be able to quit McDonald's and only work at the bakery and the Beethoven Festival this summer. 

Did I go to college? YUP. And learned a lot, I would say, while managing to keep good grades and juggling all the rehearsals. 

Did I find new places to take my music? I think so. I ended up with Blue Heron, unexpectedly, and that took me some fun places. Our trio also put on a recital, which I wasn't planning on. So, yes, I think so. 

This year brought a lot of discipline and prioritization skills which I wasn't expecting, and a lot of stress, naturally, with going to college and all. It was a big year. I graduated high school, had a senior recital, went to camp, went to college, worked two jobs plus teaching, and somehow managed to stay coherent (mostly). We put down our "big" animals too. 

Now you might be wondering what my goals for 2020 are. I saw a neat idea about having 20 goals for 2020 but I'm not sure I have 20. 

I would like to. . .

. . . get through my freshman year with grades that are well-earned

. . . work at the Beethoven Festival

. . . quit at McDonald's.

. . . keep teaching over the summer

. . . make more time for friends at school

. . . remember more often that God is in control.

. . . keep a cheerful attitude. I realized a few weeks into school that most people (me included) only focus on the bad things. 

. . . take my Mom riding.

. . . enjoy my last year as a teen! :) 

Well, that's all for now! Happy 2020 everyone!

"Show me your ways, O Lord, teach my your paths; guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are my God and Saviour, and my hope is in you all day long." 
~Psalm 25:4-5

Thursday, December 5, 2019

Just a sneak peak at what I've been working on for art class!! 

Thursday, November 28, 2019

(me, John Paul, and Joel)

Happy Thanksgiving, folks! Sorry I've been so absent here lately. 

College eats time, much more than I thought it would. It eats sleep too. And what ended up being sacrificed was my blog. I'll still keep it up, and post occasionally. I hope you enjoy reading what is here. 

I'm on break, as you can imagine. I got back right before the storm hit on Tuesday, and spent yesterday and today with family. Tomorrow and Saturday I work, Sunday I go to church (I get to see all "my" little kids ahhhhhhhhhhhhh I am so excited!), and then Monday, probably late morning, I'll head back to school. 

I brought back Thinking Theologically homework (unit 5 reading), art (painting and designing), and music fundamentals (identifying triads and sevenths and inverting them). So far pretty much everything is done, so now I have a bit of time before mixing up some food. 

Our trio had it's recital on Sunday. It went very well, and the audience has a collective opinion that we radiated energy. It is a relieving feeling to know that every spare waking minute doesn't have to be devoted to trio rehearsal, although I do highly enjoy time with them. Next Saturday we have our chamber orchestra concert, and then Sunday we're taking a trio trip to Rochester to see the symphony and choir perform Handel's Messiah. The 11th is the last day of class and Joel and I have juries and then the Razumovskys will be playing in a recital in the evening. Then, probably near first thing in the morning on the 12th, we will pack up our belongings (well, mostly just instruments and music), and head back to Joel's and my home orchestra for a concert later that evening. We may end up going right back to school that night, or we might spend the night. It all depends on finals, which start the 13th. Sophia will be coming back with us, and I am excited about that. She'll get a taste of my crazy college life, and be there for Friday, Saturday (a final, a Christmas brunch at church, a BHC rehearsal...), and Sunday. Sunday is the Blue Heron Consort (oops, you don't know about that yet. Sigh. John Paul and I got into a local choral music group, and our Medieval and Renaissance concert is the 15th). Monday I have three finals (I think). Tuesday Sophia will head home, and my parents will pick me up and we'll head to IL to see my Grandma! 

I actually won't be home on Christmas break until the 21st or so. I need to come up with a work schedule for break, and all that fun adulting stuff. 

How are my readers doing? 


Friday, August 30, 2019

A year

It's been a year since one of my friends killed himself. 

Is the hurt gone? no. 

Do I still miss him? yes. absolutely. every day.

Do I still cry? yes. sometimes. 

Have I learned much? yes. too much. more than I ever wanted to. 

What have I learned? I've learned what it's like to grieve. I've learned how to cling to God and my church, and get through hardships together. I've learned to care more about every person, man or woman, young or old, apparently happy or sad. 

I've done things I never thought I would do in my life. Only a little while after Levi died, another man killed himself. and another. and another. Suicide was all around us. I walked into a Police Station with food and said "I'm sorry your comrade killed himself." I hugged a dear adviser and said "It hurts. I know. I wish I didn't. But it does. And here's how we're dealing with it." I've written a speech for a class about suicide, only months after it happened to me. I've argued for life. Your life. It's worth it. I promise.

-A Letter from Levi-
Do not stand by my grave and weep.
I am not there. I'm not asleep.
God's gift to me was just my soul,
That takes no space, and leaves no hole.
My body, made for strength and joy,
That did not grow much more than boy,
Is not what put the life in me.
I did not need my eyes to see,
Salvation to my Father's home.
Here I stand, and not alone.
My Father is forever God,
My family is great and broad.
My mother is my sister here,
Like all the saints that hold me dear.
I am, like all God chose to save,
Not buried in a six-foot grave.
I live! I live like Jesus does,
An unbound soul, not like I was,
Confused and anxious, brain and heart.
Now I cannot from truth depart.
I made mistakes I can't undo,
I robbed myself and others too.
All these sins my Savior knew,
When he said "I'll die for you."
He followed God the Father's plan,
Was born and died as God and man,
And rose again to lead the way.
And now I see him every day.
I worship like I never could,
Just like how I know you would.
Do not stand still in memories,
That are as changing as the trees.
Their rise and fall is seasonal.
They break and die the same as all.
Your bitter tears will dry so fast.
I'm telling you: this too shall pass.
Look up. You'll see that I am safe.
Look up, and also live in faith.
Do not stand by my grave and cry.
I am not there. I did not die.
- Caleb Streblow

Thursday, August 15, 2019

Eeeeeek. I haven't posted in about nine and a half weeks????? You may be wondering if I made it out of camp alive.

Wednesday, June 5, 2019

Hey.... it's been a while hasn't it?? 

I've had my senior recital and graduation reception, written TONS of thank you notes and organized the many gifts... you guys were generous. Anyway, I've also counted the weeks until I move out---and it's only ten! I've got a lot to do between now and then, so wish me luck. I start my second job on Monday, and I have a wedding this weekend and next, and college orientation in there somewhere. I'll be making the trip to that on my own, so I'll get used to the drive and hopefully not get lost. Oh, and find the coffee shops along the way. :) I've also got an intense ten-day music festival/camp/kill-yourself-doing-what-you-love-thing in July at my college campus, so I'll actually get to live on campus for a bit. 

What have you been up to? I'd love to hear!

Monday, April 29, 2019

    I went outside to gather spring-time pictures, and I was not disappointed. When I didn't see anything to take a picture of, I just sat for a minute and looked around, and what do you know, I noticed something I hadn't seen before. 

Monday, April 15, 2019

Why I am going to college, Part 2

This isn't so much about why, as in how it's all working. But I had to keep with the theme, ya know. 😉 Oh, and I got this posting idea from Victoria Lynn's blog. 


Monday, April 8, 2019

Why I am going to college, part 1


    I think it's safe to say that in most Christian circles it is either considered wrong for girls to go to college or that they only go to find husbands (otherwise called an M.R.S. degree). However, I think there is another category